Back to it...

After months and months of not writing on my blog, I have decided to start up again. The past six months have been more challenging than I had ever begun to dream they would be. But in the same breath, they have been the most rewarding as well. God is god and he has most definitely been working miracles in our lives'.


Our baby girl joined the family on January 12th. Alyssa Lynn Easterly was born! Who would have known in those first seconds that I held her in my arms how much she would teach me in her short life. She has exhibited such strength in her first six months. Two weeks after her birth I started noticing some brown spots on her skin. There were only two at first, but as the weeks went on I noticed more and more. I questioned myself as a mom, at times wondering why I had not noticed these spots at birth? Little did I know this was the beginning of a long period of questioning and uncertainty. 


At her two month appointment I pointed out the spots to our pediatrician, who referred us to a pediatric dermatologist and then to an opthamalogist and finally, a neurologist. Long story short, she probably has a neurological disease called neurofibromatosis. What is that, you may ask? We did. We had never heard of such a thing. Looking it up on the internet scared us so bad that we were in tears for days. My husband stayed home from work and we just wept together. Why? Why did our daughter have to go through this? What did her future entail? It was a long week of sadness and confusion. That was four months ago...


Since then, our baby girl has learned to sit up, she eats solids, she sleeps regularly, eats normally, communicates appropriately and she has the biggest smile you have ever seen. To say this child is developing "normally" is not correct- she is developing "perfectly" for us. Alyssa is just that- perfect. She is physically beautiful, yes. But more importantly she puts a smile on every one's face who meets her. She is smart, loving, snuggly and happy all in one. She adores her brother and loves her dad and I. She recognizes and appreciates her family. She is curious and  energetic. She amazes us in so many ways. God knew exactly what he was doing when he blessed us with this child. Now when we ask the question "why?" it's in a different context- Why didn't we trust that God knew exactly what he was doing?